Just finished Cycle 5 this week. And to be honest, I'm feeling it. Toxic, that is. Oxaliplatin: the peripheral neuropathy, (juicing a lemon with ski gloves on!) sunburned-like face, (nobody told me about that one!) chemo brain, (first brought to my attention as a definite possibility by one of my work colleagues. Thanks Lynn, I would thank you in person, but I will have probably forgotten!) And of course the fatigue, ( is it time for my nap yet? Oh, just had one...). Too listless to even write and tell you guys about it.
But I have to today. I'm having a CT Scan this afternoon. ( sudden sharp intake of breath!) I've had a funny pain on and off around my original op site. So I mentioned it to the Oncology Reg, who couldn't find anything to worry about but as I'm almost finished my (?first) course of chemo, thought it prudent to have a complete thorax and abdo scan. Of course it will show how things are progressing.
Or not.
I've moved on from biting my fingernails to considering biting my toenails. Despite weekly Tai Chi and Iyengar Yoga sessions, I still can't manage it.
I remain resilient and positive. My days are fairly quiet, with a bit of meditation, a bit of light exercise, vegan meals, ( what a great world to get involved in, the food opportunities are are fantastic, I've let my imagination run riot and am trying all sorts of new dishes. I try to have an interesting and tasty meal ready when Sara walks through the door. She walks this Journey with me, her commitment and love are like a beacon of light when things get a bit dark and fuzzy around the edges), and of course, the juicing. 1 to 1/5 litres a day. I'm growing wheatgrass and that gets thrown in as well. I've started sprouting seeds for salad, (also makes great juice !), and am attempting to grow micro greens as a tasty salad topping. There are trays of dirt and growing things all over the house. Yup, Sara is long suffering!
By the time I get my scan results, I will have probably have had my 6th and final cycle in this Round of Fun.
Should I cheer or should I weep?
Watch this space...
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